25/06/09
The news suppliers were all bursting with the king of Pop , M.J. His death brings lots of depression or even an eye opener. :O
Rest In Peace-50
Farrah Fawcett , the pulchritudinous woman :)
Rest In Peace-62
27/06/09
Saturday ; so called 'Koperasi Day'.I reached school at about 6.50 and talked about tennis with Sanggeethaaaaaaaaaaaa . She's so enthusiastic about her R.Federer , but not me while I kept saying he'll be defeated by R.Soderling :)
I helped out at the stall of my class , decorating the stall under the hot steaming Sun and tying each two balloons into one set . Oh before that , together with Shazy , we went up and down , forth and back to send the corn to the teachers who have ordered earlier on . Then , I went into the 39 stall to help out again , putting in the spoons with Shazy help packing it one by one .
Few ten minutes later , we went to look for food , asking here and there if there's any nice food. So , Shazy bought her sandwich and I bought cup cakes from Jing Han's stall :D . Later then , Shazy , Azell , Sasha , Ain , Mia , Hui Min , Sim Yin , Joanne , Jing Han and me gathered and planned to go to some 'ghost house'.11.30 sharpppppp , we went in. The bravest , Sasha volunteered to go in first , followed by Shazy , Azell , Mia , me , Jing Han , Joanne , Sim Yin , Hui Min and Ain. We were told to hold each other shoulders , not to break when walking through the path. And the worst , we've to find our way out all by our own . Zzz.
The so called imitative human-ghost shouted , we shouted. Pulling the collar of our shirt is way out of ludicrous ! It's kinda painful :D We stopped half way with Sasha went off too fast that Shazy and the behind peeps were left out. Sasha arrived at the exit door and the ghost asked her to go out , quick ! . She said , NO. She said " NO , I'VE TO SAVE MY FRIEND. THEY'RE DYING" while all of us stopped , so dark that we cant walked .Jing Han's hand was molested while we're not moving there. Finally , they shouted , go go , walk walk , fasterrrrrrrrrr. All of us run with frustration , a lil bit of panicking stuff to the exit door. Derisive and bla , arent it ? Fyi , this is the first ever time I went in to this type of thingy in my school :D
So yeah , we separated after all. I followed Jing Han to her stall . She was begging everyone to buy her ice-blended stuff. Pity Sanggeetha have to buy the mango liquids due to no one bought it. Again , Federer will lose :P
Mmm , I helped to sell the food which my class have not finish selling. begging stuff we did -.- I got to sell part of it ! *applause ! :D
I went out of the school with Shazy , Azell and Sasha :)
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Coz hear I am — still holding on!
With every step you climb another mountain
You'll make it through the pain
Just when you think the road is going nowhere
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when there is smoke there is fire , no smoke without fire
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Just..People are so terrifying now . I guess they're becoming more selfish and more. and that bothers me. totally , crush me off to disappointment. devastated , pain in the heart .
Exams are over for over a week. I've no idea why my results are bad ; but is worst ! you'll drop your mouth off when you see it. lmao. Some I flunk , which pulls me down & I'm too lazy to argue with teacher in order to get another few marks , even the answers are clearly written in some note. *sigh
Look , there's even B in my result. sucking pathetic marks *sighhh. and I do disdain myself . Believe that. and this examination kills me. usually , first term I'll be dead in ranking. lmao ! but nvm , faith then ..† and Segak is worst for me. my heart beat 109 , cant believe right ? we'll see... @@ - I'm a failure
I'll be skipping all the tuition next week . *dang dang danggg it . mm , thanks for the one who helps out in history and geography folio :D .
Labels: depression, failure, school, studies
Some how , I attend the meeting and have fun . live to sing ! and get the joy in our hands . I stayed back mostly everyday when they asked but wentback early for some vital reasons , maybe . I can see the future , starting with the word "fun" . but , as time went on ... The second day of practise , I decided to quit the team cause I could not meet their requests. So , that bothered me alots. conflict and so . my exams are around , I thought for awhile. yeah , I quit cause I'll be absent in Seremban for weeks,maybe and .. with devastated look that people cant realised. nevermind , I told myself :) I'll get another chance to enjoy another thing , maybe . I miss it. - choir.
Precisely , activities in school are getting me fatigue . Wednesday , I look to the opposite of the block , where I'm attending my Leo's meeting , it's choir. *sigh. Momma was talking non-sensely to me where I'm singing along while rushing back home. Pity you .
So yeah , friends are getting further from my sight . Especially those who're totally oblivious of what they're treating me *wink. Never mind , I thought again .. Lord , my standing friends :) - faith as always , trust as my life . - you know who you belongs to.
Look , I have always enjoy the fun that your friends tease you . I keep my emotion as normal as possible so I'll be pretending not to know *lmao. - I adore you . and I've my hope *grins.
If the two soul belongs together , doubt we'll be together no matter what. time proves !
and tmrw's my starting test for the first day . *struggle. *praise the Lord for everything. Pleaseeee bless me for my on coming March test .. All rise ! :) and guess what ? Wooo hooo ! I got some twilight stuff from U.S ! Thankssssssssss daddy and mummy for supporting meeee. I'm @#$%^&*() happy ! be secure , be secure. yeesss yesssss ! happy for me , do youuuu ?
but it just costs me a lil expensive to have it *sigh - but is affordableeeeee (only for me) ! *wheeeeee ! anyone wants to sponsor ? lmao ! -180 plus in M'sia
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Today was called , the day of awesome ! but devastated in another way . Anu ! I'll miss you . I hope you like the watch :) and it suits you , uhhh . My friends , all my classmates , except a few of em' were busy , went to a&w to celebrate Anu's farewell party. we'll miss her righttt ! We gave her a surprise where we hid in the toilet first. Haha ! we got complaint by the customers for being so noisy. *embarrassed people ! I really , really hope she'll stay with us till secondary five , but you've to go UK. we understand *sigh. Right.. thanks for those camwhoring , Shazy and Steph. I love your camera ! vasttt ! Oh yeah , Momma , we'll get to be vampire one day GG .
I ordered food and sit with Hui Min & Sim Yin. Gah , Momma , your hair was awesome , bloody reddish :P be ware , I'll get you in school. LMAO. Mmm , I hugged Anu before going back with Azell. Ahha , I knew I've to spent lotsa money going out with Azell. rich ass right ? *grins . Thanks Sasha's mum for guiding us to a&w . Momma ! remember me when you're a fampire ! D:
Oh , thanks Hui Min ! you guide me through the choir songs even when studies are on. and fransisca , alto master , thanks ! I love you guys ! zillion of thanks :) without your teaching , I will never qualify to competition choir team. thanks ! and the choir seniors , thanks .
and I-am-a-last-min-homework. I'd my v.sam's essay before sleeping. Jas , shock , uh ? :D
21/02/09
I'd rather die than stay away from you . really .
today , I went to v.sam together with Azell. ahha , her daddy was really cool today. no doubt he'll wait for us to go up before driving off. ( cause the pre-mad-man is there ) *faint. Oppsss. A lil ppl , not much ppl came today . Kent, I promise I'll land my hand on your face if you keep teasing me. bewareeeeeeeee ! grrR. *roarr
Ahh , v.sam asked us to sit the other table so that we could face her. so yeah , we're not facing only the board but (dot) awkward . I rush down when the tuition ends :D
You're so tender that I've to be very still . facing you , dazzle me alots. My life is so bright compared to last time , that you've existed for me ! :D Right...

whee :D - 19/02/09
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worst luck right ? I guess is the fameless shit . maybe..
V.sam's timing , terrible. pull your ear and pull your body down. where the hell they got their brain to do without 2 mistakes in that paper? Even , Kent and the smart ass have to be punished. Sigh ! Cheating ? Whatevaaa lah . Wheee , you walk behind me today :D Poor poor thing , twilight notebook based on Stephenie meyer novel is coming out on the 17 Marchhhhhhh . *giggle. imma not sure whether I could get it anot. I'll . with my try , with my best. I'll .
I almost laugh. *grinsss
Dang itt ! Green house in SMKP got the second prize !. All rise ! lmao.. The evidence for my damaged brain :
I've tried my very , most very best to decipher you. Theory. I always want a theoryyy. *struggle.
My gosh . Bang my head against the wall . Shazy was awesomely funnaaayy. Botak , guys ! :)
Incomplete partial of star-crossed loved . me ? you ? Nerve damagedddddd.
Labels: depression, miscellaneous-random, twilight
Cut it off , pay attention on studies . May you ?
Oh oh , thanks Sim Yin for taking care of my twilight companion book . and Hui Min , please don't bend it ! thanks :)
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She cried just before my grandma was going off to buy her food b'cuz her sista wanna stay in my house for swimming later . She doesnt allowed her instead , and cry cry cry. finally , they decided to go back together with my grandpa waiting in the car . BUT , she isnt gonna stop crying if she never got two packs of junk food , her sista ordered me to take for her *I scowl . Grrrr . My bro awake by then , and the whole family of us , went for our breakfast . Daddy was wondering who could ever follow him to entertain Uncle Edward from Sg. No one . everyone was busy -- my mummy busy with her cake & my bro and I having some musical class. piano and guitar recently . So, he just waited for Uncle Edward to reach Seremban at bout one in the afternoon . Haha ! my mummy finally said she'll follow him to the lunch again.
When my piano lesson end , I found that my parents were just back from the lunch , talking bout the scholarship . They said I've probably
We reached PD at bout six o'clock where my bro borrowed some bicycle to cycle around the area. He apparently saw lotsa new bungalows which we actually decided to see it before dinner , but we didnt . I'm busy with my story book , struggling to read a.s.a.p cuz there's no way for me to read it when school reopen. is a fear next year . *giggle . There were lotsa cuisines anticipated by my grandma earlier on before we reached. Haha ! Chien cried again when Amy tried to change the Astro channel to another. Another scolding from my grandpa . *faint.. Mmm,the dishes were well-prepared . just awesome . Some how , we rested awhile after dinner and went back to S'ban at bout eight , leaving to say goodbye .
I was mind-thinking those things to do in the twenty fifth . sort of time-travelled to back when I'm still kiddo type. love , happiness , subterfuge action , depressed , truth ; all I've been before . and yet , time is never given out to anyone .. funny though , but , I'm always being distracted by Amy . she's so dam talkative & irk me as always through chummy sometimes . precisely , I disdain some of the action she did ; I grimace quickly to cue her while she's talking . -- so that she knew it by herself . GG . Then , our destination arrived back to my house while my maid anticipated those fruits --oranges , pears and stuff *grinsss . Amy is endlessly asking me to fix her computer *sigh !
Night , my dream will freak me away ; talking without sense . =OO I've dreamless night bout it for a few days .
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drinks to attract malays =P
Her friend ; maybe Jasmine Wong & Sim Yin
Joanne Hoh Yen yen (:p/s- apparently I hate unjustice . dont ask me why but she ..
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